The Ugly Truth

Well, It has been awhile since I have had the chance to get on here a BLOG... Not sure if it was the going back to work, or if I really didn't have much to say.

BBBLLOOOGGG.. to me it kinda sounds like the regurgitation sound. Guess a blog kind of is word vomit... haha It has been for me .. especially when I have time to think deeply...

I think I am going to start blogging now about my struggles with foot rehabilitation. I got my cast off this past Thursday and I will start physical therapy next week...it will be fun I am sure. The doctor assures me that I will start having to take my pain meds again, as I am learning how to WALK again. WoW! And with the walking boot I have on I can't put pressure on it yet, but when I barely put it down it hurts, so I can hardly wait till the therapists make me put it down.

The hub has decided to turn lazy on me ... He was very helpful when the surgery first happened, but the more freedoms the doctor gives me the more he sits and waits for me to take care of business.

Excitement....

Well, my little baby girl, daughter K will be turning 12 very, very soon. So, I have agreed that she could have a slumber party. She is so cute. The other day in the car she asked me... "mom, what are you gonna do with a houseful of girls?" laughing I answered .. "after your two older sisters, and all the parties that they have had, I think I can handle a houseful of girls..." She is so excited.
We got her the cutest cake ordered, and on Saturday we will be going to see "Diary of a Wimpy kid".. with all her friends. She is going to have a great time and i am so very excited for her.

We are going with the "movie" theme. They are trying to talk me into taking them all to Walmart on Friday at midnight to go buy the New Moon movie. Just what I want to do..especially since the temperature is supposed to drop about 40 degrees.

The excitement at our house today is just getting the girls to pick up and get their rooms cleaned up for a slumber party.

Excited for March Madness even though my brackets are not looking so good. Nervous about some of the number 1 teams now after today's upsets....But it is just for fun right?

My oldest A had a really fun trip to KC to watch her college's boys team play in the NAIA tournament. I was excited for her about that to go and have some great fun with friends.

I have been asked to be the MS cheer coach. Excited about the challenges that will bring and how I will handle it differently than a softball team cause that is all I have ever coached. :) We will see.

Love...

Recently saw the movie Valentine's Day ..
Not as entertaining as I thought it would be with all the BIG stars in it. I cried, laughed a little. Observed some things.
The movie portrayed love from the old and steady relationships, middle aged folks in relationships, teenagers (hormonal) in relationships, and the very young and naive. It was interesting that the older couples who had steady long term relationships and the very young were the happiest in the end. Were the movie producers implying that Generation X and Generation ME can't think past themselves to completely and devotingly LOVE another person?

Was I the only one that pulled this concept from the movie?

Peace and Pieces

First of all let me say - last week I got a virus on my computer, and I got writers block (how do you get writers block when all you wanna do is put down your thoughts? I don't know...) so I didn't post. Then this week has been my first week back at work so you can imagine, days are busy at work - nights I am worn completely out!

Grrr.. Taxes! I really hate this time of year due to the fact that I am "in charge" of gathering the paperwork to take to the tax preparer. I am so glad I am one of those people who tries to keep receipts organized throughout the year. But then, just when I think I have all the pieces for the puzzle - bam! My hub comes up with a vet receipt or some farm expense that needs to be added in .. then a day later he brings in his fuel receipts, and a day later he finds a doctor visit paper...So my pieces get scattered and more work for me! Bout to get it all together and turn it over tonight, called the hub and told him I was ready and he says - well we can wait another day or so to take them. Grrr.. Hub

So spring break is beginning and it will be nice to have the peace again. Please don't get me wrong, I LOVE my job. I am just so ready for this cast to get off my foot, and to get some rest again. My whole body is completely worn out! Maybe I went to hard to fast?! After the break just 3 more days and I get to have the cast removed and get some air on my foot. The other night all I could think about is how nice it would be to feel air on my foot and leg...

I did come home early today. Just so worn out and stuff I can do here on the computer.

My oldest daughter A has been on break this week, it has been so nice to spend time with her. I have discovered when she is gone and then all of a sudden here how much I miss her and how very much alike we are.

Daughter R has been struggling in school, but I think she is finally trying to put the pieces together and do better. I am told by her teachers that she is very capable, she just likes to visit a little too much. Hmmm.. wonder where she gets that trait from. Love that girl!

Daughter K is growing up on me much too quickly - she will turn 12 in just a couple of weeks. She has really come out of her shell this last year and I just love her funny personality. She makes me laugh every night.

Well there are the little pieces from these last few days...and now I am off to get some peace before the bus gets home.

Picture this...

So during my time off I have sorted through lots of pictures. It has really been a lot of fun.



A few of those photos have been transferred on to my facebook...which has been even more fun. Ya know, pictures of family growing up, and college and my childhood friends. Some of caused great controversy about the old hair styles, clothing, and how cute we all are - I mean were.



I also have sorted through tons of pictures of my children growing up and intended to get them all in books and all cuted up. And I still have my parent's 50th anniversary album to cute up too (sorry Mom). Hard to do when you don't have all the pics. haha

I was all geared up to tackle all this on my medical leave. That was definitely something that I could do when I was sitting and propping. But my big plans fell through. GRRRR at myself. I am so disappointed.



I have also been sorting through pictures we have taken at work, need to prepare the website and use for other projects. That has been a lot of fun. Hope that my friends there don't get mad at some of the candids that have been snapped. I have lots of ammunition if they have a birthday coming up...



I love photography, wish I was better at it. Thought once or twice about going into photography classes, when I first started my Mass Communications journey, but changed my mind.

The simple things...

Everytime I sit around and think about things that are important to me (and lately that has been a lot since I have had some free time) I think about that old skit on Saturday Night Live (think back a decade or so) Deep Thoughts by Jack Handy...

So instead of calling this post Deep Thoughts - and strip fame away from Mr. Handy, I decided to proclaim it The simple things...

Simple things are hard to see sometimes. You really have to slow down from your average day to really see them.

Stories that my parents share, a wink from my hub, an I love you from my kids, a message out of the blue from friends, a moment alone to catch my breath.

Watching the puppies play, birds sitting on the bird feeder, green grass popping through the brown, riding in a car with the windows down.

Listening to my daughter breathe while she sleeps (anyone of them), children laughing (especially mine), having the opportunity to have someone tell you thank you.

Fresh bed sheets, hearing birds chirping through your open house window, the smell of lilacs.

Hearing "I love you" or "way to go" or "i'm proud of you", Telling anyone, any of those things.

You see it doesn't take much to make me smile, feel warm inside or happy. Just the simple things. I have been given the opportunity to slow down, and realize that.

So, I am going to plead to you after reading this to slow down and think about your simple things.

Just a passenger...

One of my friends who is a counselor at our school told me that this foot experience would be a humbling and personal growth experience for me. Man was she right.

I have been so humbled by all the help that I have received. The meals that my friends and family have provided, the books, movies and magazines that my friends and family have loaned or bought me, the rides that have been provided for my children to get to school, the phone calls and emails that I have received just checking in on me, my family helping open doors, up the stairs, propping pillows under my foot, and the RIDES.

For those who know me really well, know that I am very particular about driving. I am a very defensive driver. Maybe that's my years driving a school bus, who knows (?)... When we go somewhere together I actually prefer to drive just so I feel I have more control of the situation. But in the last few weeks, I have learned patience, understanding and no matter how hard you push your foot on the floorboard when you are a passenger, the car still isn't going to stop.

I truly have been grateful for the rides. I couldn't have gotten through the last few weeks without the help. And the experience to be a little more patient.
So if you are reading this and you have driven me anywhere in the last month, THANK YOU! And I am sorry for the permanent imprint of my foot on your floorboard, and the fingernail marks in your passenger arm rest. Just kidding. Well to most of you...

And thank you to everyone who has helped me in all the others ways that I listed. You made my time a little more bearable and a little less boring. Man, I am truly blessed and just a passenger in this life that God is ultimately guiding me through.