A little down..

Today I feel a little down, not sure why but I do.

One reason may be my daughter A will play in her last home basketball game tomorrow, for her first college basketball season. It's her first last. Her last first too. Does that make sense? Even though I am often considered outspoken, (and yes, sometimes harsh cause I tell it how it is) I am also very sentimental. Words can't express how incredibly proud I am of her.

Another reason may be my daughter R. Last night she was crying about running track. Although that may not seem like a big deal to you or me, appearantly it was huge to her cause she was VERY upset. Yes, she is the most emotional and dramatic of my three daughters, but she was geniunely upset. She made me start crying to cause she told me she felt like I only loved her when she takes after her big sister (reference daughter A). I had to tell her as she sat on my lap that I love her for who she is, not who I she thinks I want her to be. And I had to remind her that I have never compared her to A, cause all of my girls are sooo different there is no way that I could. Do I want her to be athletic? yes, Do I want her to be involved in activities that I know will make her stronger and more driven? yes, Do I want her to be just like her sister? no.... it almost broke my heart. It got me to thinking if I really do compare them to her.

Another reason is I haven't even begun to mention my daughter K on here. And she is a tremendous kid too. She has been so helpful to me since my surgery and rarely complains about it. Unless I am interrupting her game on facebook or something. haha Anyhow, I will make it a point to tell you more about K and her activities in the next few posts.

And the final reason I am a little down is I have been experiencing my first - OMG my foot itches in this cast episode. The doctor told me specifically not to scratch any itch. His suggestions? Meditate, take a benadryl or try to shift my foot or leg a little in the cast to help relieve the itch. WOW! I am trying not to think about it, but the more I try to not think about it the more that it starts to itch!!...

I am having my first day out of the house, driving myself today too so I am sure there will be some sort of adventure to type about later.

ttfn (and in case you aren't Hannah Montana fan - that means tata for now..)